Letter 1968

LETTER 1968 [No date.]

You have put me well to confusion by asking me about my prayer. Alas! daughter, it is ordinarily nothing but distraction, and a little suffering: for what else can a poor, pitiful mind filled with all sorts of business do? I tell you plainly, in confidence, that for about twenty years God has taken away from me all power of any prayer of the understanding and reflection—that is, meditation— and all I can do is to suffer and hold myself very simply before God, clinging with complete abandonment to His action within me, making no acts unless incited to them by Him, waiting there for whatever in His goodness He will give me. See how I satisfy your desire; but these last lines are for yourself alone. When we meet we will discuss the rest, God willing.